My dad has been busting my butt since I missed my curfew a few days ago. He wanted a life plan due to him today or he'd send me to the military. I wrote the plan and he checked it out and he wasn't satisfied. So I expanded on it. And I guess I'll find out if he's happy with it or not...Not that it really matters. Because I'm 18 there's no way in the world he can just "send" me to the army if I don't want to go. There are procedures and papers that I would have to sign, so unless I want to go, I won't be going. But...I'm sure he'd find something else equally retarded to use against me.

I was writing yesterday about me and my ex boyfriend and Anon. Basically Anon was just using me to have sex. And anyone who knows me knows....that's impossible and a very lost cause because I don't have sex. Me and my ex...well we....idk. We cheat about what we do and don't do.(which has been a constant moral battle with me) I mean sooo much stuff has happened that it's crazy. I don't even know how I can still look at my ex...he did something that I never thought I could forgive someone for, but apparently...he's not just anyone. I've tried to tell him to bury the hatchet with Anon, the same as he told me. But he doesn't seem to inclined to do it. I know he misses the fact that they hung out or that he knew he had Anon as his right hand in a fight...But he just won't let what happened go in terms of being friends. Me, I was forgiven right off the bat, which was indeed not what I expected. But, it's been a week...or two...maybe even three. I've lost track of time...But I think it may be three because it happened when I first started at Party City...IDK things are always so confusing. I mean I still don't want to hang out with my ex and his friends because they're the typical males. A girl can't say how she feels and drink and act like they do or she's a ho...I hate that. A guy can say he's hot and bothered and no one would think twice about it. A girl says it and she's acting like a slut...ever wonder about that? Ever wonder how guys would feel if females switched with them? All the abuse and name calling and disrespect we take from them...they would get fed up and want to fight it out the second it comes at them...IDK I just have a lot to think about